In reflection of where Natural Integration began within my own expectations and aspirations, I feel a bit of embarrassment.

If everything went according to plan, I would still be within this project: An endless creative vision in which I would have essentially lived within the national (and state) forest and park systems, sharing my wisdom and insight I garnered from being so in tune with nature, bringing our society and culture into some semblance of homeostasis, making my family proud and finally understanding what it is that I stand upon.

I went as far as to create a 7-page proposal, outlining my intentions and the support which I was seeking to make it happen. If you are interested in reading it in its entirety, you can find it here:

Natural Integration’s Proposed Vision

I end the proposal with A Concluding Philosophical Tangent:

I believe we are at the crux of a Conscious Renaissance, a critical juncture within humanity where we are no longer bound within Survival but rather are actively passing through the threshold into a state of “Thrival” as a collective. Our fears are no longer outside of us and can no longer be projected onto others; they exist within our own self-imposed limitations. In truth, this is how it has always been- we are needing to understand this wholly and collectively if we are to truly pass beyond this threshold. We have been projecting our insecurities onto our living experience for millennia, and now stand in the awareness that we have imprisoned ourselves in a false sense of “security,” yet still battle the same demons within the “castle” of our minds turned “prison.”

For reasons intrinsic to my nature and process, I am living and breathing within this vision and have been for as long as I have been. I am who I am, and I am undying within this creation. This is not a career, this is not a desire for “celebrity status;” this is my life- there is no retirement. I am liberated in this understanding, I am free in my ever-arrival to each step towards the Horizon never achieved, always evolving.

I represent a voice that is rising into embodied awareness, a voice that is speaking within Generations, spanning a wide range of expression and development.

I am not the “authority” of these voices, but I recognize enough to see the role I am naturally called to fulfill within this vision.

In all that I have experienced, I desire to hold space for the development of the sensitive creative minds, the true medicine within humanity that must be given the space and time for their flowering, fruition, and fulfillment. I know not their unique nature, but I desire to cultivate the soil for the sake of allowing their natural unfolding.

Thank you for taking the time to take in and consider this message in all of its layers.

As I moved into this exploration, I began to realize what Nature wanted to reveal to me. This would otherwise sound like an extended cliche; things which have been said many times by many people throughout many points in history. I wrote reflections up to “4. Joshua Tree,” but then came to realize it was too much of a forced effort, to much of a sense of work.

Could I have done it? Of course- But it would have felt like a living hypocrisy within me if I was to pollute Nature with this “grinding mindset” versus allow for Nature to teach me better ways. To then pretend that this was the “Voice of Nature,” and to posture as if I was really “dialed in,” when in reality I was only trying to force my way into relevancy- as if that is connection.

In Corpus Callosum I share a bit of the story involved with getting the van I currently live in. I had been focused on this intention before anything was offered to me; I was still living in the Honda Fit at that point.

When it seemed as if nothing was going to come through, and when I realized that I really don’t have any connections or any sense of a supportive network, I decided I was still going to go forward with the project and trust that I can make it work with what I have- and the rest will fill itself in as things move forward.

As I share in Corpus Callosum, the moment that I was in process of building a new storage solution in my car out of PVC pipes so that I could begin moving forward with the vision, my Father had called me. This story is layered within Momentum Metanoia, The Shattered Series, as well as in Corpus Callosum- so if taken out of context it can sound as if I am simply a spoiled manchild that was given $20,000 out of the blue and out of the sincere compassion and charity of good-hearted parents.

It is true- they did not need to give this to me; they did not need to do anything for me. It is also true that they were able to benefit from the Covid-economic-bullshit, and I can’t help but feel that their guilt from what had happened was consuming their conscience. Although they did not address any of it, I was grateful to receive the $20,000-

More than all of the money that I have personally been able to bring into my life over the previous 5 years combined, likely.

And so I took this as a sign from the Universe in which I was destined to make this real, that everything was going to fall into place for as long as I maintained my devotion to the vision- for as long as I endured through the entire process.

What is the moral of this story?

I could extend this story ad nauseam to relate what my experience was through all of this time, but that isn’t the point. Although I am still learning and integrating this lesson, I wish to share this body of work for it to simply be received as it is in its own nature. The photography is a part of this series, the inversions are a part of this series. Although I was only able to create 27 of the intended 34 (and two of the ones I created I eventually burned); although I was only able to make it until October 9th, 2022 instead of the over-aimed-ideal-proposed (which would still be in process); although I was incapable of healing my relations with my family and realizing my own structured form of stability in this sociocultural complex- I came to discover a new relationship with Nature.

Although the proposed outline was very unconventional and “out-of-the-box,” it was still in the aim of securing some sense of stability and predictability. Although there would be a tremendous amount of fluidity and unknown factors involved, it was still a self-constructed container in which my time (identity) could be bound.

I am still learning the cyclical nature that is the Procession of the Seasons, consistent in their design yet never the same in their unfolding; I am still learning my relationship with Astrology and its chemistry within the mental/emotional/physical bodies; I am still learning how to be a Human in this time, trusting in my natural growth and development without forcing something- and yet, still finding myself trying to force things.

Nature is always honest, and I believe our true nature is Honesty. There is no Evil which exists within Nature, but rather it is the projections that are rooted in survival which generate the fear. I believe, as I have stated in previous writings:

Evil does not exist- only Ignorance. In the thought that Evil exists is Ignorance itself.

No amount of sustainable agricultural systems or humane societal structures or altruistic charities or educational programs will resolve the issues which exist in the nonphysical realm, bleeding into reality.

To see through sight alone is to live within the Grand Illusion.

There are patterns which are rooted within this “nonphysical geometry,” which come to be revealed- in time- by means of the actions carried out.

As is said, “you will know them by their fruits.”

Anyway, I could go on and on with this. At the same time, I think that it is likely the case that those “WHO KNOW” don’t need it said more, and the ones who see this as some esoteric riddle will never come to “see it” by means of me endlessly explaining it through a website. Feel free to message me through the contact form.

With all of that said! Here it is.